Need a Push

If you had to pick one thing, only one, that you would say holds you back in life the most what would it be?  It's tricky for me. Yes, I have THAT many things. Le sigh.   I have been thinking about it a lot the last few weeks. The silly thing is is I have tons of tools to push my way past them. 

But, if I had to pick one it would be, I worry that "what if it's the wrong choice?".  Or even on top of that,  what if what I choose I am actually good at and succeed? Then people put a certain expectation on me that I can't live up to. 

Seriously this crap goes through my head like clockwork. It's like every time the 9 comes around the bird pops out and starts pecking. Yes, I know the bird usually cuckoo's and doesn't peck. In my case it pecks. 

So I am trying to cook something up that is going to challenge me. Something that makes me accountable in some sort of way. Where it's like I have to push past those things…or else…haha. No maybe a competition would be best. I try and pretend I am not that competitive but i really am.   I am open to some ideas….please help…  Or if you just like watching a girl flounder about keep stopping by the blog you won't be disappointed :)

Multiple Personalities

Recently I was thinking about getting back into the work world. I thought about how strange it would feel since I am just finishing up 3 years being a stay at home mom.  The more I thought about it I kind of panicked a little. It made me totally anxious to think about how I would ever survive an interview. Then I shook my head and realized why being a full time Mom is like the ultimate workforce prep. 

Think of this mock interview question: Ma'am can you work in a team environment?

Mock Answer:  *insert smile and nod*, why yes in fact. I have spent the last 3 years in a 24 hour 7 day a week job with multiple personalities….

Then that is where I would pause and reflect. Try and decide "Do I tell him the truth?".   What truth you ask. Oh you know that the multiple personalities all belong to one person. Who can't even read or write. One tiny thing that one moment is throwing their arms around you kissing your cheek…then BAM!  Literally 30 seconds later they are on the floor screaming that, and I quote, "Don't you do that to me, DONT talk!!!!".  Which obviously being told you can't have juice is a dramatic life changing moment.  Oh wait it's been another 30 seconds, now they are up and gleefully singing and dancing to a song they just made up on the spot.  Who doesn't need a mid-show song and dance?

See what I mean.  Multiple personalities. I will be able to work with just about anyone and not even be phased by them. 

*Also if you are feeling nice and haven't voted for me yet please go to http://www.toms.com/ticket-to-give/flags/4350 

Dream Big, Right?

I don’t know the first time I  felt the pull.  I know it was sometime in high school.  Grade 10 seems like the right number.   Probably because that is the time when you start to become a little more serious about, the terrifying, ‘what do I want to be’ thought.

I had big ideas. Ones that always felt too big for a girl from a town of 800 people.  Things that felt so largely beyond me that I simply daydreamed and moved on. Just to name a few, I wanted to make a film any kind of film, maybe a documentary. Heck that one is still on my list!  I wanted to be a mom, check. I wanted to be far far away, sorta check I lived in Halifax.  I wanted to be a healer of some sorts. Yeah I said healer mostly because that could mean so many things. 

One of the biggest things that has always and will always sit on my plate is to change the world.  Yeah big statement, one person.  I get the absurdity of it. I also feel creatively charged by the thought. Maybe its as simple as parenting my kids in a way that creates people who will one day actually take care of our people and planet.  Maybe it’s helping to make sure my community thrives. Maybe it’s helping another mom out there realize…well, she’s normal.  Maybe it’s building a school in a foreign country.  All I know is things like this are on my mind every.single. day.

Which brings me to my exciting opportunity. I was lucky enough to notice that TOMS was having a contest.  You could enter a ticket, one ticket. One that could change your life. This ticket, should you be in the top 50, will take you on a ‘Giving Trip’.  A trip where TOMS actually delivers and fits shoes onto children.   Amazing right.  Well I need help. I need one vote from everyone. You can only vote once. All it takes is a minute to put in one vote for my ticket.

Here is a link to go ahead and help create the beginning of a dream for me.
http://www.toms.com/ticket-to-give/flags/4350